Indescribable

Have you ever had a certain feelings or thoughts which you cannot explain?

Try to think about the moment you got your new Android phone, your friends threw you a surprise party or when you finally graduated from your university courses. Well, do you feel happy? excited? thrill? fun? Some would express it in a more poetic way.. "over the rainbow" or give percentages to the level of your happiness and excitement. These are the positive ones.

Now, think of the opposite. Imagine the moments of you being dumped, been betrayed by your dearest friend, left aside by your family or being ignored and pushed away by your close friends. How would you feel this time? Sad? Disappointed? Lonely? Frustrated? Devastated? 

Are these words enough to describe how you feel? How you ACTUALLY feel? The answer is no. The thing is, the real person who had gone through the real thing is YOU. Not others and that is why those feelings are INDESCRIBABLE. 

When sometimes things get too hard, you find it very hard to express how your felt towards others. Even if you shared your feelings and thoughts, it wasn't enough because you may not or couldn't get the solution you want. Seeing things that made your feelings worse makes you more speechless and hence the word "EMO" = abnormally silent to oneself and keep oneself from interacting with others.

"Know" vs "Can"...

Previously I was quite active on Facebook and in a short period of time I wasn't. A lot of times I could see many posts regarding their lives, their emotions, pictures, videos, work and quotes. And recently on facebook, I came across a post with a really meaningful quote. It goes something like this.

             "I know when to stop, I know when to let things go, 
                  I know when to move on. 
                      But "I know" is different from "I can".. 

I find this quote very true and it reflects our personalities. Our brain and our heart do not work together properly most of the times. Your brain says it's time to stop, your heart refuses to comply. Many of times these things happen when you really desire for something but you know it will not happen. 

I read one of my friend's blog related to rationality.. Well, that's "I know". When it comes to the "I can", that's the hard part. It might be hard to deal with.. but try to hold on.. 

"Good luck" ^^~

Miss...

I miss you, I will miss the event, don't miss the chance, miss the target... What's "miss"? A noun? A verb? A feeling? Well, there are exact definitions where you can find from your dictionaries. 

Here's what you can't find... Miss means you didn't get a hold of something you should to or you want to. Something you have been aiming for. When I tell you I miss you, it doesn't simply means I'm thinking of you when you are not around... It also means I want to get hold of you and I want you to be with me. If I tell you I miss a chance, it doesn't simply means I let it slip pass me... It also means I regretted the things I didn't do to let it slip away. If you miss your target during archery, it doesn't simply means you lost the game... It also means you lost your pride. 

Knowing what is miss... made me miss it more... I will definitely miss ...

Unpredictable...

Many things in our life are unpredictable... A better word to describe "unpredictable" would be "surprise". Some maybe happy events, some sad events and some might be just shocking. These unpredictable things are the ones that they would call as the spices of your life. Without them, life would be just a bore... which I totally agree. Well, you wouldn't want yourself to sit around idly all day long right?

Talk about unpredictable... It occurs a lot to me in my life... Things I wouldn't dream of to happen at all. Getting to know many nice friends in an isolated place, losing a friendship along the way, going for a close friend's wedding, attending to a dear friend's funeral, getting together with someone I've longing too, breaking up with him... and many many more... Every ups and downs in life are unpredictable. When you think you experienced and have the best in the whole world, in a blink of an eye you lose all those things. Some "downs" caused you to be hurt so deep and so bad that you hope that you will never have to go through it again in the future and made you miss many opportunities in life. Sometimes you even wished for the UPS not to come so that there won't be any DOWNS. Because you don't have the confidence, the courage, the strength... Sometimes we would wonder how did we actually made it all the way here and now.

There were many "cures" according to people. Listen to emo songs, tell a friend, pray to God, write a diary, do your favourite activity like baking. These things are great to get things off your mind. You may not feel a lot better after those things but it may help you to go a little more further. You need the UPS, you need a motivator, you need to be courageous and give yourself a second chance a third and many chances. So when the DOWNS come along, you will have something to hold on to... Happy memories, happy friends. DOWNS will always occur even if the UPS don't happen. Its just that the DOWNS will occur all the way.

LET THE UNPREDICTABLE COME. ^^ 

The Wait...

How do i begin with this... Hmm... You know... Many people often wonder why older generation couples last longer than we would? Why does our generation has high divorce rates compared to before?

In the olden days when a guy likes a girl, he will first try to talk to his friends. To find out if any of them know her. Then he will move on to her friends. To get her name, find out where she study or work, what's her house telephone number, her house address. After that, he will try his very best to say his first few sentences to her. Maybe a little flirting going on. Next is the communicating step. He will start writing letters. I like to call it love letter ^^ wrote -> sent... then wait for her to receive it and reply. Letters sent and receive would take days and for a reply would take weeks... Finally, letter step done. Moving on to dating step. Guy call girl to meet up at some place nice. Guy reaches there first, then wait for girl...... or vice-versa. A DATE! Later on, they wait for the second date, and the third and the fourth... and so on...

Do you see where I'm going with this general short story? It's about the wait. It's all about the waiting. You wait to get in a relationship with someone. You wait to fall in love. You wait for the one you love to give you answer. You wait for your date to show up. And you did the waiting over and over again without realising it. 

 

Don't you get it yet? We tend to appreciate more when we need to wait more. Still not enough proof? Take the Iphone for example. When the products was first announced, people waited for the launching day. The day before it was launched, they camp out overnight to be the first few in lie to get them. Finally when they got it, they would treasure it like hell. Buy casing to protect it, buy this and that to accessorize it.

You see... when you really want something, you wait for it. And then appreciate it for life when you get it. Don't waste it. Remember the efforts you've put it when you were going after it. (It refers to LOVE PARTNERS) so... WAIT and APPRECIATE~~

Mistakes...

There are many things we did in life that was right and wrong... Well when we did those things we always thought that they were right anyway. Nobody's perfect. We tend to live our lives filled with mistakes that we may not be proud of and some might be really embarrassing. Hey! There are some GOOD mistakes that we feel really nice about it and do not mind repeating it... Like falling in love maybe <3  But do know that only through mistakes that we are able to realise certain things we did in life are wrong. For example, we cheated during high school exams even though we knew it was... Well... Against the rules... Or we talked back at our parents during an argument... Or even sang the wrong note during your solo performance... Now that's embarrassing...

Back to the topic. Mistakes. Not only we realise certain things we did were wrong, but also certain people that we befriend with were a mistake too. Some you think are trustworthy turned back to bite your ass, some you think can keep your secrets turned to be a loudspeaker, and some you think could share your problems with turned out to be judgemental... That's why we always hear people telling us that we learn from experiences. JUSTIFIED. 

Sure these mistakes leads to disappointment, sorrow, regrets and many other negative feelings as well as thoughts. But hey... what is done is done. This time, just remember to think twice or even thrice before you do anything. You may think this is troublesome BUT if you don't want repeat negative mistakes, you might want to consider this.. ^^

one of the good mistakes ^^~ hope you enjoy