Indescribable

Have you ever had a certain feelings or thoughts which you cannot explain?

Try to think about the moment you got your new Android phone, your friends threw you a surprise party or when you finally graduated from your university courses. Well, do you feel happy? excited? thrill? fun? Some would express it in a more poetic way.. "over the rainbow" or give percentages to the level of your happiness and excitement. These are the positive ones.

Now, think of the opposite. Imagine the moments of you being dumped, been betrayed by your dearest friend, left aside by your family or being ignored and pushed away by your close friends. How would you feel this time? Sad? Disappointed? Lonely? Frustrated? Devastated? 

Are these words enough to describe how you feel? How you ACTUALLY feel? The answer is no. The thing is, the real person who had gone through the real thing is YOU. Not others and that is why those feelings are INDESCRIBABLE. 

When sometimes things get too hard, you find it very hard to express how your felt towards others. Even if you shared your feelings and thoughts, it wasn't enough because you may not or couldn't get the solution you want. Seeing things that made your feelings worse makes you more speechless and hence the word "EMO" = abnormally silent to oneself and keep oneself from interacting with others.

"Know" vs "Can"...

Previously I was quite active on Facebook and in a short period of time I wasn't. A lot of times I could see many posts regarding their lives, their emotions, pictures, videos, work and quotes. And recently on facebook, I came across a post with a really meaningful quote. It goes something like this.

             "I know when to stop, I know when to let things go, 
                  I know when to move on. 
                      But "I know" is different from "I can".. 

I find this quote very true and it reflects our personalities. Our brain and our heart do not work together properly most of the times. Your brain says it's time to stop, your heart refuses to comply. Many of times these things happen when you really desire for something but you know it will not happen. 

I read one of my friend's blog related to rationality.. Well, that's "I know". When it comes to the "I can", that's the hard part. It might be hard to deal with.. but try to hold on.. 

"Good luck" ^^~

Miss...

I miss you, I will miss the event, don't miss the chance, miss the target... What's "miss"? A noun? A verb? A feeling? Well, there are exact definitions where you can find from your dictionaries. 

Here's what you can't find... Miss means you didn't get a hold of something you should to or you want to. Something you have been aiming for. When I tell you I miss you, it doesn't simply means I'm thinking of you when you are not around... It also means I want to get hold of you and I want you to be with me. If I tell you I miss a chance, it doesn't simply means I let it slip pass me... It also means I regretted the things I didn't do to let it slip away. If you miss your target during archery, it doesn't simply means you lost the game... It also means you lost your pride. 

Knowing what is miss... made me miss it more... I will definitely miss ...

Unpredictable...

Many things in our life are unpredictable... A better word to describe "unpredictable" would be "surprise". Some maybe happy events, some sad events and some might be just shocking. These unpredictable things are the ones that they would call as the spices of your life. Without them, life would be just a bore... which I totally agree. Well, you wouldn't want yourself to sit around idly all day long right?

Talk about unpredictable... It occurs a lot to me in my life... Things I wouldn't dream of to happen at all. Getting to know many nice friends in an isolated place, losing a friendship along the way, going for a close friend's wedding, attending to a dear friend's funeral, getting together with someone I've longing too, breaking up with him... and many many more... Every ups and downs in life are unpredictable. When you think you experienced and have the best in the whole world, in a blink of an eye you lose all those things. Some "downs" caused you to be hurt so deep and so bad that you hope that you will never have to go through it again in the future and made you miss many opportunities in life. Sometimes you even wished for the UPS not to come so that there won't be any DOWNS. Because you don't have the confidence, the courage, the strength... Sometimes we would wonder how did we actually made it all the way here and now.

There were many "cures" according to people. Listen to emo songs, tell a friend, pray to God, write a diary, do your favourite activity like baking. These things are great to get things off your mind. You may not feel a lot better after those things but it may help you to go a little more further. You need the UPS, you need a motivator, you need to be courageous and give yourself a second chance a third and many chances. So when the DOWNS come along, you will have something to hold on to... Happy memories, happy friends. DOWNS will always occur even if the UPS don't happen. Its just that the DOWNS will occur all the way.

LET THE UNPREDICTABLE COME. ^^ 

The Wait...

How do i begin with this... Hmm... You know... Many people often wonder why older generation couples last longer than we would? Why does our generation has high divorce rates compared to before?

In the olden days when a guy likes a girl, he will first try to talk to his friends. To find out if any of them know her. Then he will move on to her friends. To get her name, find out where she study or work, what's her house telephone number, her house address. After that, he will try his very best to say his first few sentences to her. Maybe a little flirting going on. Next is the communicating step. He will start writing letters. I like to call it love letter ^^ wrote -> sent... then wait for her to receive it and reply. Letters sent and receive would take days and for a reply would take weeks... Finally, letter step done. Moving on to dating step. Guy call girl to meet up at some place nice. Guy reaches there first, then wait for girl...... or vice-versa. A DATE! Later on, they wait for the second date, and the third and the fourth... and so on...

Do you see where I'm going with this general short story? It's about the wait. It's all about the waiting. You wait to get in a relationship with someone. You wait to fall in love. You wait for the one you love to give you answer. You wait for your date to show up. And you did the waiting over and over again without realising it. 

 

Don't you get it yet? We tend to appreciate more when we need to wait more. Still not enough proof? Take the Iphone for example. When the products was first announced, people waited for the launching day. The day before it was launched, they camp out overnight to be the first few in lie to get them. Finally when they got it, they would treasure it like hell. Buy casing to protect it, buy this and that to accessorize it.

You see... when you really want something, you wait for it. And then appreciate it for life when you get it. Don't waste it. Remember the efforts you've put it when you were going after it. (It refers to LOVE PARTNERS) so... WAIT and APPRECIATE~~

Mistakes...

There are many things we did in life that was right and wrong... Well when we did those things we always thought that they were right anyway. Nobody's perfect. We tend to live our lives filled with mistakes that we may not be proud of and some might be really embarrassing. Hey! There are some GOOD mistakes that we feel really nice about it and do not mind repeating it... Like falling in love maybe <3  But do know that only through mistakes that we are able to realise certain things we did in life are wrong. For example, we cheated during high school exams even though we knew it was... Well... Against the rules... Or we talked back at our parents during an argument... Or even sang the wrong note during your solo performance... Now that's embarrassing...

Back to the topic. Mistakes. Not only we realise certain things we did were wrong, but also certain people that we befriend with were a mistake too. Some you think are trustworthy turned back to bite your ass, some you think can keep your secrets turned to be a loudspeaker, and some you think could share your problems with turned out to be judgemental... That's why we always hear people telling us that we learn from experiences. JUSTIFIED. 

Sure these mistakes leads to disappointment, sorrow, regrets and many other negative feelings as well as thoughts. But hey... what is done is done. This time, just remember to think twice or even thrice before you do anything. You may think this is troublesome BUT if you don't want repeat negative mistakes, you might want to consider this.. ^^

one of the good mistakes ^^~ hope you enjoy 

Life's like hills...

When you were in kindergarten, did you learn how to draw? Well, the drawings are typical... A piece of really wide land, a round smiley sun, a few V-shaped-line birds, and... HILLS...

Well, life's like that...like hills I mean... lines of those hills are drawn up and down, up and down repetitively. Life is full of ups and downs. At times you feel like you're making so much progress in certain things, finally going to achieve something really meaningful and after that a gradual slope downwards and here comes disappointment. And most of the times we tend to look back more to our sad times rather than our happy times.

You can't blame yourself, you can't blame the life's nature to be like that, you can't blame God... basically you can't blame anyone or anything... because it's no one's fault. It nature. It happens to each and every living person in this world.

But remember this... in that very drawing, there is always a sun = new hopes everyday, a flock of birds = a groups of friends and family to accompany you along the way, a shade of clouds = a place or time for you to rest and relax, green trees = a reminder that you should just live the life thankfully ^^

Opposites...

What was the first thing that came across your mind when you see the word "opposite"? Opposite attracts? Opposite worlds?

Guys and girls, may I remind you that the first (opposite attracts) leads you to one of the world's valuable time of your life by getting into a relationship while the latter (opposite worlds) leads you to one of the world's most devastating ending in you life. The so-called excuse that boy and girl from different worlds and then break up. Isn't it amazing how just the change of one word can bring such drastic changes?

Opposite are interesting. Its things that are not usually found, you can't see it in yourself. You have to look around and this is what makes life fun living. For couples, appreciate the opposites. If you got a problem with it, solve it. It's not like you're going to be to find anyone who is exactly like you. Take advantage of the opposites. Turn them into glues of your relationship instead of an axe. Take the challenge, live the life. You might find it worth your risks.

Inevitable

Sometimes in life, there a few things that you cannot avoid. No matter how much you think about it or how many alternative ways you form to go around, these things won't go away. You might say that it got stuck there.

Many of us make plans. Plans for the future. Plans to go hang out, plans for dates, plans for dinners, plans for farewell parties, plans for weddings.

BUT somehow, something just had to pop up and show up in the middle of everything, making all your plans go to the recycle bin. Well, it could end up in a recycle bin because you may only need to postpone your plans but most of them you have to delete it permanently because you don't have the drive to go ahead with them anymore.

Of course you have to weigh the IMPORTANCE of your plans with that pop-up stuffs first, then only make decisions. You see, certain things are inevitable... which mean you have to accept them as they come. Being frustrated over it brings no benefit at all. Deal with it.

Fiction...

Imagine a world. One of your own. One you can throw in all your imaginations in. Arrange everything as you like. Put all the bright-coloured puzzle pieces into the picture and throw aside all the dark, black pieces.

Paint those holes with your own colour. It need not be perfect. It need not be beautiful. It just need to be completed with your favourites =) happy ?

*blink blink* Your up. Awake and away from your fiction world. Then you realise you need to get back to the real world. Sorry to break the news that you have to get on with your life then... Well, don't try to go for the unreachable. Stay close to the ground. Hold thoughts of the possibles in your mind. Take a look around you carefully. You don't want to miss an interesting event or maybe an interesting person. Thank God for whatever you have and I guess you have to pray hard if you want more. Remember... the fiction world will lead you to no where else but further from life. From reality. 

Daring moves...

When it comes to big decisions, sudden change of situation, or to make daring moves, we will always stop and ponder for a while. Some of us may take a few days to consider the pros and cons of making a certain choice, some may take weeks or months, however, there are some of us that would take forever to wonder the possibilities but never take any action. 

At some point of your lives, big decisions determine the turning point of your lives. Either one of the choices you've made will lead you down a great and adventurous journey OR it may bring you down, all the down to misery, regret and guilt. They say when it comes to times like this, turn to professionals or experienced people. They say go with the flow... bla bla bla~~~ I say sit down, pray to God, be silent a while to rest your mind and then listen to your heart.. The first thought that comes into your mind, go with it. Don't hesitate or wonder any longer. 

Once you've made that first step, never ever look back. Trust yourself and have confidence in your choice. If you do not do so, you might feel only regrets. 

Faded memories...

How well do you remember your childhood memories? Back when you first talk, when you first stood up, when you took your very first step since birth or even when you had your first crush?

Recently I was required to call back my memories, way back into my childhood times where I did all those things above, meeting my first few friends and going to kindergarten as well as primary school. I realised that I've went through several stages of life already! Those memories are faded and they seemed to be quite a distant away from my mind now. However, when I had the opportunity to sit down and recall them, I was glad and thankful that I had the chance to go through them all and meet all those people in my life. I guess this is what they call life experiences. 

The first thing that came through my mind was the time when i was playing with my childhood friends. Hide-and-seek was the only game we play everytime we see each other and we never get bored of it. 

As time passes, I realised that I played less.  After getting into primary school, i would use every opportunity when it came to sports time to get myself all around the field. Each time i fell, I would pick myself up without letting a drop of tears out eventhough it hurts so much. Each time I fail to win the sport, I would tell my self to try harder again next time and not giving up so quickly. Each time I fought with my teammates, I would be the first one give in and join our friendships again. But how come as I grew up, all those courageous thing I once was able to simply do it, and now I find it so hard? 

The next stage of my life was secondary school. Well, things got more complicated there. However, no matter how rough my start was, God always polished the road ahead of me and allowed me to have a great time for a couple years. I guess I didn't appreciate those times well enough. 

Thirdly comes college. Well technically, I go all the way out of town to attend to that particular college. Then again, things started out roughly as I wasn't able to adapt to the whole new environment, the people, the furnitures and most importantly the STUDYING. Studying in this college beats studying for SPM or whatever.. This is when life started to get really stressful guys... Now in university, it doesn't gets easier...

Oh well, we all have our pasts, we all have our regrets as well as sweet memories back in the old days.. But what's important is the present... Some day in the future when we are 50 or 60, look back again into your pasts. You may cry because you lost someone, you may laugh at yourself because you did something silly and at that time you didn't realise it was sutpid or you may congratulate yourself because you finally achieve something in life. When you do all those things I told you so, there will be no regrets. Write a diary, tell your grandchildren, let your very own life live on forever eventhough you may be not around. Because, wherever you go, whatever you do, those memories remain. They may be faded a little, but they can never disappear. This I tell you, is one very expensive treasure of life.

Girl's Dreams...

Many may think that girl's dreams are silly and should stay just as dreams. But think of it this way. We always heard about girls mentioning that they want their prince charming riding towards them on white horses. Well, when girls say they want to meet their prince charming, it doesn't mean that they want to meet someone handsome, tall, hot or smart. Prince charming means soul mate, someone to take care of them, some one who will love them and be loyal to them, some one who will hold them in their arms and tell them everything will be okay when troubles come and someone who will kiss them to show their affection, and that white horse means bright future. Another example is about the cliche of princes and princesses living happily ever after. Well, that cliche doesn't means that girls wanna be with their boyfriend being happy all the time as we all know that there is no such thing. "Happily ever after" means that girls want to be happy even after many arguments and troubles. They want to be able to fix things together and going through the ups and downs with the love of their lives. That way a relationship can be build stronger. Every girl has their dreams and every dream brings a very deep meaning about their lives.

entering a new chapter of life ?

Have you ever wonder what life would be when suddenly everything around you change abruptly?
Well, this happened to all of us every time we enter a new chapter of life...
From nursery to primary school, from primary to secondary school, from secondary school to college, from college to university, from university to work life and finally settling down...
If you ever thought that is the end, you're wrong. not that you're only wrong about your life, but also about everyone's.